Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Summer 2013 July 31

79 degrees this morning.  Started raining about 6:30 a.m., so couldn't sit out on the patio in spite of excellent weather.  
I really don't like rain.  I prefer sunny weather, even though I know rain is necessary.  I have never considered rain to be romantic.  Of course, it is one of those things that is out of my control, so I won't worry about it. 
One of the most important thoughts or concepts I have learned in life is don't worry about events or things I can't control.  Saves me a lot of time and wasted energy.  Of course, I do need to worry about my reaction or what I will do if an event happens, whether I can control it or not!
Hope the rain stops.  Went to the Redbirds ballgame last night.  I will miss the Redbirds games after the summery winds down.  For some reason, their home schedule ends in mid-August (instead of early September), so I am hoping they will be in the playoffs so we can see a game or two in September.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Summer 2013 July 30

Warming up.  74 degrees this morning.  Feeling now like a possible rain.
The landscaping company we paid a lot of money too to upgrade our landscaping apparently is not going to return to fix their mess, which means I have to hire another company to do it.  I get so tired of incompetent companies who won't return to finish up their work or fix something they didn't do right.  I know there are a lot of good companies out there, just hard to find the right one.  "Angies List" has been right in some cases, but not in others.  It isn't like a bad meal you can just forgot to sink a lot of money into a yard, or a house.

Monday, July 29, 2013

Summer 2013 July 29


Relatively cool weather this morning (70 degrees), it is turning out to be a cool summer.  I really noticed a lot of difference in the heat between here and Topeka, Kansas (it seemed a lot more muggy in Topeka, not sure why, maybe the altitude).
Speaking of time, one reason I don't watch many videos on the computer or watch hardly any live tv is that they seem to have no concept that my time is valuable!  I can't pick and choose, like I can a newspaper, written story on the computer etc.  I also rarely to to movies for the same reason.  I guess I don't like ceding control of myself to someone else.  I especially hate wasting my time on hearing/seeing sports news, "celebrities" I know nothing about (or could care less about) etc., or crimes that I don't need to know about.  I have always been that way, not a matter of "getting older" or whatever". 
School will be starting next month, meaning summer is almost over.  I will miss going to the Redbird baseball games, we really have enjoyed it, even when they lose it is fun to sit outside. the Redbirds are a class organization.  For some reason, baseball is the only sport I really enjoy seeing "personally and live".  Maybe because it is outside and has a relatively even pace (the length of the games is one thing I don't like).  Anyway, I will miss them.  The Redbirds are a class organization and I enjoy dealing them them and seeing the games, even if it does take up an entire evening.
Speaking of time, I try to not schedule early morning (8:00 a.m. or before) appointments, if possible, so I won't intrude on my precious morning "hyper time".  I scheduled one this morning for some reason.  
The Lakeland Election campaign will be in full swing soon.  Campaign signs will be allowed starting today and I'm sure the informational mailings will start.  I will be glad when it is over.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Summer 2013 July 28


Relatively cool this morning (73 degrees).  
Saturday and Sunday I am frequently the only person at ATC, although there are other "regulars" at that time, they are primarily weight lifters.  (This is in the 4 a.m. to 5 a.m. time frame.  During the week (primarily Monday through Thursday), I expect our little community is about 30 people, and can vary from 10 to 50.  There are about 20 "regulars" that I recognize as regulars.  I don't talk with any of them (unless I drive and shower there), except for an occasional "hi".  It is a part of my life where I don't really interact with anyone else, kind of like driving.  I do wave to the Walgreens truck driver as I ride through the Walgreens parking lot.  Apparently this is the time they trade drivers.  Other than the truck driver, I always wonder who leaves their car in the Walgreens parking lot all night.  (This isn't every day.)
Enjoying the weekend, as normal, not enough time.  I usually add a book or two to my list of "books to read" from the Wall Street Journal or New York Times and look in dismay at what I haven't read.  I am also far behind on magazines. But it is nice to be busy.  

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Summer 2013 July 27


Warmer than I expected this morning, about 73 degrees, the point at which I try to decide if I will a long sleeve or short sleeve shirt and shorts or swearpants before I exercise.
One thing I really resent on all computer/technological products (and AT & T DSL) is the apparent assumption by the sellers that I have all the time in the world to spend on the phone on hold or "try this, try that" where a simple service call or bringing the product in would make the difference.
Dell Computer has to take the prize for inefficiency, incompetence and red tape nonsense.  I was ordering a computer or the City, which is exempt from sales taxes.  We have an account, which says we are a City, etc.  I was asked to submit a Tax Exempt Form, so I e-mailed a Tax Exempt form.  After about a week, I was advised the Tax Exempt Form needed to be made out to "Dell Marketing LLC" (or something like that) instead of "Dell Computers".  It seems they could have made that change themselves, rather than delay everything for several days. (I actually had to check on since it had been a week.)
THEN, they e-mail me (after another delay) and advise me I need to put the VENDOR ADDESS (which of course, is their address) on the Tax Exempt Form.  I made a note that I didn't have their address.  SO, they sent me their address (after another delay).
At this this point, I advised them I was buying it elsewhere and cancel the order, I didn't want to do business with them.
No wonder Dell Computers (wait, maybe it's Dell Marketing Ltd!) is having problems!

Friday, July 26, 2013

Summer 2013 July 26

Very cool this morning, 66 degrees.
I really get tired of the computer companies making junk and then trying to charge excessive rates to "fix' their mistakes.
Latest case was a Google Matrix 7 that failed after 7 months.  Staples refused to honor the guarantee (even though I had an "extended warranty" and they admitted the battery hadn't lasted near long enough.  
Apple is just as bad.  I have an iPod Nano (7th Generation) which won't sync now.  Makes it a piece of junk.  I can understand why Steve Jobs called so many things "s**t".  He produced a lot of it.  Some excellent products also, but also some real junk that Apple Computers never took responsibility for.  What really upset me was the extortive rates they wanted to give me advise on the ipod, which is only about 7 months old.  
Glad it is Friday.  Seems like a long week even though I took Monday and Tuesday morning as vacation time.  Of course, I'm still catching up.  
I keep a list of books I want to read.  My list has grown to the point, I know I will never read all of them.  Doesn't mean I can't try!

Summer 2013 July 25

Coolish (70 degrees) morning, not near as muggy.  Good day for cycling etc.
Went to dentist today about “tooth implant”  (actually two of them).  I need to bite the bullet (so to speak) and get it done.  It seems like a lot of money, but if I don’t do it I will probably regret it.
My problem developed right after the Air Force, I had a year to get free dental care.  I made the mistake of taking advantage of that and the Dentist pulled the tooth rather than take the time to do a  more complicated procedure.  I still think it was laziness on the Dentists part.
This required a “bridge”.   About 15 years ago, this bridge was replaced.  Since I am required to have two teeth implants.
I have decided I need to do something about “Time”, especially at work.  It seems the time just flies.  I don’t resent having to do most of my work at home, it is just the way it is, but it seems there is a lot of wasted time.
One of the times I really notice time fly is in the morning on “hypertime”.  Time just flies.  I like to walk, lift weights, bicycle, read my newspapers, catch up with my e-mail etc., as well as eat breakfast etc. before I leave for work (this includes at least a 17 minute nap, since I get up around 3 am)  I’ll keep working on it.

Summer 2013 July 24

78 degrees this morning, possibility of rain.  Good to get back to my routine of walking/cycling/reading the newspapers etc.  Listening to “Steve Jobs” while I walk again, finished “Man’s Search for Meaning”.  (Still trying to live the lessons I learned from both books.
Really enjoyed the Reunion.  It is nice to have several days to talk with everyone and not feel pressured to say everything in a few hours.  Of course, some things still never get said.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Summer 2013 July 23

Heavy rain, thunder and wind greeted us this morning as we drove into Lakeland.  I’m not sure if I have ever seen lightning like that.
The Summer, 2013 Courter/Wherry Reunion is over.  I always look forward to it and always feel some regret when it ends.
Otherwise, hectic day, trying to catch up etc.

Summer 2013 July 22

Extremely busy day.  Up early, breakfast, took Angela, Kali and Katherine to OKC, then on.  Caught up with e-mails etc. getting ready for an early day tomorrow.

Summer 2013 July 21

Enjoyable visit at the Family Reunion.  Ate too much, stayed up too late etc., which means it is fun!  
Saw a full-fledged rainbow last night.  Vibrant colors, almost a complete double rainbow.  Took pictures, but obviously no way to take a picture of that!
I do wish it would stop raining and clear up, but weather is one thing that you just have to accept what is happening!  (As I mentioned in the past, only I can decide how I will react).
Looking over pictures of ancestors, and educating a (somewhat) both interested and bored granddaughters.   From my own experience, I understand!
The “official” reunion is over, although a day of visiting will continue!  Hopefully the weather will be conducive to swimming.  
Visiting today, always feel a little sad as the reunion ends and people start leaving.  In most cases will be at least be another year before we visit again, in some cases it may be never.  A large number of relatives couldn’t attend this year, hopefully will be better attendance next year!

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Summer 2013 July 20

I will always think of "Moon Day" on July 20, even though I slept through the Moon Walk.
I was actually in U.S. Air Force basic training in San Antonio, Texas.  We had been there since July 15 and the original culture shock was still there.  I think most of it slept through it.  A chance to sleep trumped a chance to view history in the making.
My memories of the first few days of Basic Training are blanked out.  Even after only a few days, I had no memories of the first few days of basic training, other than a few scattered memories.  
Late night storms last night, supposedly clear this morning.  I have enjoyed the visits with everyone, today more will arrive.  
I am glad Saturday is here.  When I am on vacation, I still feel the obligation to return work e-mails, check for phone messages etc.  Not a big deal, but I feel much more relaxed on weekends and Holidays than I do when I am taking a day of vacation.  
I enjoy having my granddaughters with us.  I think of the memories I have of childhood and I realize they are creating similar memories based on their relatives at the family reunion.

Summer 2013 July 19

A day of relaxation after the long drive yesterday.  The Reunion is going to be relatively small this year, for whatever reason.
 I forget about the Kansas wind and how flat it is until I return.  I think the nighttime heat is actually worse than Memphis and the morning isn't near as mild, even though the temperature is about the same.  Could be the humility also, or the type of heat. 
Good visit with everyone this morning.  Went swimming.  Went to see the "rainbow house".
Ate  "Dave's Famous".  I tried the XXX Sauce and immediately started baying at the moon!  It was HOT, but GOOD.  I liked the restaurant.
Thunderstorms after supper.  
I happened to walk to the lobby and saw Rebecca, who had just arrived.  Not more than five minutes Kim walked into the lobby, and then Eleanor.  I guess relatives do have some type of ESP link!  My Mom always seemed to me to have a very strong ESP type (for lack of a better term) link.  There are examples throughout her life of knowing someone was going to call, or knowing there was a problem.  The best example I can think of is on the day of her death, she called all of us children and many of her friends.  She didn't call to say goodby (I don't think).  I always regret I wasn't home when she called.  When I called back, she didn't answer, so I will never know what she wanted to tell me.  

Summer 2018 July 18

Looking forward to the upcoming family reunion.  
Currently in Van Buren, Arkansas. Drive from Lakeland was good, just a long, hot drive, but no traffic tie-ups or problems. I like the Hampton Inn here.  Normally we get upgraded, but we are normally here on a weekend.  We didn't get a major upgrade this time, but it is a nice room anyway.  
Supper at the "managers reception" at the hotel.  Actually, it was nice, a light meal that was free!
Up early this morning working on agenda items etc.  

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Summer 2013 July 17

79 degrees this morning.  Excellent weather for my walk, cycle and sitting on the patio.
Finished "Man's Search for Meaning".  A great book.  As I mentioned, I listened to it and I  need to find a printed copy to look up some of the thoughts.
Deer in the trees behind my house this morning, it  ran off as I went to the patio.  It is nice to know the deer aren't by the development.  
Really hectic at work right now, but that is good, just time is at a premium.  
The Courter/Wherry Reunion is soon here.  It is always fun and a trip down memory lane.  We gather and have time to talk and not feel rushed, which is nice.  It has been held since 1947, so this will be the 66th Reunion.  (I attended the first one with my Mother, although I wasn't born yet, or maybe my Mom didn't attend, now that I think of it.  I do have a picture of the 1948 reunion.  They were held in Salina, Kansas at a part called "Sunset Park".  I always remembered it as a large park with a railroad tracks on one side, and a myriad of ponds, bushes, trees and places to play.  Years later, I returned and realized it was a relatively small park, much smaller than I remembered!  
I always enjoy the reunion, both for visiting with all of my relatives, but also for the chance to be with Angela, Kali and Katherine in a relaxed atmosphere for several days.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Summer 2013 July 16

Between 76 and 79 degrees this morning (depending on your location).  Excellent morning on the patio.
Sometimes I think a book comes up for a reason.  The book "Man's Search for Meaning" has some especially appropriate thoughts right at this time, especially the thought that a person "chooses your response" and doesn't let someone else decide for you what your emotional reaction will be.  That helped me change my initial reaction to anger to a more relaxed reaction.
I am always surprised (although I shoudn't be by now) when a business basically refuses to back up their work.  We had a local landscape company "English Garden" (recommended by the way) do some work, and now we are facing having to spend more money because they won't back up their work.  (Having to look at their mess every morning made me think of that.  I may try one more time to get them back to backup their work before I call someone else to clean up the mess of 3 dead bushes, a dead tree and a bungled french drain. the drain works fine, but the grass i dead on top from inadequate sod.)

Monday, July 15, 2013

Summer 2013 July 15

Reasonably nice weather this morning.  74 degrees at 3 a.m., some cloud cover.
Continuing to listen to "Man''s Search for Meaning".  He is now in the part where he is out of the concentration camp and is finalizing his thinking and "meaning' in life.  He makes some statements about a persons perception of the future.  Again, this is one book I will need to get a printed copy of so I can review parts of it.
Monday morning, perhaps dreaded because we lose control of our time for the week (depending on our schedules) and looked forward to for the events and possibilities during the week.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Summer 2013 July 14

Sunday morning, someone coolish, a few clouds in the sky.  Nice enough to sit on the patio.
Listening to "Man's Search for Meaning" this morning on my walk, the observation was made that all persons have the choice on how they respond to a situation.  They can respond in a variety of ways.  I am thinking this through and will try to apply it throughout the week, consciously deciding on how I will respond as various situations arise.  I will need to get a printed copy of the book (although I probably have one already someplace in my collection.)
I was just thinking this morning, 40 years ago as I was driving back from Virginia and my 4 years completed with the Air Force, I had a lot of choices and a lot of decisions to make as far as career etc, and must my life overall.  Now, 40 years later, I also have a wide variety of choices, but they are a LOT different.
Yesterday, just by chance, we noticed that oil was leaking out of our car.  Since we had just had it changed, we called the dealer, who immediately advised us to come in, found the problem (a set of washers had gotten stuck together) and fixed it.  This could have caused major problems on our trip to the Reunion, since the oil leak would have gotten worse as the pressure in the engine increased from the long term driving, probably eventually running the engine out of oil.  Sometimes small things can make a big difference.
A local charity is coming by this week that picks up donated items.  I'm going to spend part of today disposing of items I no longer have any use for.  It is liberating, but also provides a sense of loss, perhaps loss with the past.
Another thought in "Man's Search for Meaning" was that belief in a future is essential to human survival 

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Summer 2013 July 13: 40 years

July 13, 1973:  This is the day I got out of the Air Force.  Since my regular enlistment end date of July 15 was on a Sunday, I got out on Friday, July 13.
I packed my items in my car, a Datsun 510, said goodby to my friends and took off on an epic journey.  I drove from Langley, Virginia (actually Hampton Roads) and drove up through Washington D.C., which I hit right at rush hour.  After a terrifying trip on the Washington D.C. beltway, I took the Pennsylvania Turnpike (the geography of it all escapes me).
I stopped somewhat at a motel in what I considered the mountains.  Obviously I was dead tired and woke the next morning to mountain streams outside my door.
I don't recall a lot of the rest of the trip.  I remember at one time, I stopped in a City named "Springfield" and was confused as to what state I was in.  In Lawrence, Kansas, I had car trouble and probably escaped a hefty bill by telling the repaid shop I had just gotten out of the Air Force and was coming back to Lawrence to go to KU and I would bring my car in then.
I visited my parents in Wakeeney, Kansas for about a month.  I felt the freedom (and the fear) of unlimited choices of what I could do with my life, and I considered everything.
One day I got in may car and headed for Wichita, Kansas.  I stopped at a small motel outside of Wichita State University and enrolled in the Political Science Department for a Masters Degree program.  (I couldn't get into KU, I was too late for enrollment for whatever reason.  Wichita State University let me enroll based on the fact they wanted different backgrounds in their program.  (I had a BA in Economics and also had spent four years in the Air Force.)  Although I had taken some courses in Air Force, returning to school was tough, but very rewarding.  I enjoyed my time at Wichita State.
I used to think of 40 years as old and now it is merely the time of my life since I got out of the Air Force.  
Even now, I can remember the thrill of starting life, (this was the time of the draft looming, so finishing the Air Force was my first experience of feeling the complete freedom to make choices. 
Coolish this morning.  Almost too cool to sit on the patio.  

Friday, July 12, 2013

Summer 2013 July 12

"Reading" (actually listening to) "Man's Search for Meaning" and "Steve Jobs" at the same time frame is a definite contrast.  In one, a man has almost unlimited resources and can get any material items he wants (even though he remains minmal and very non-materialistic), in the other, a man is stripped of everything, his freedom, dignity, and survives on a small amount of bread and soup each day.  Contrasts to say the least.  It has presented me with some powerful food (so to speak!) for thought.
71 degrees this morning, almost too cold to sit on the patio this morning.  Around 72 degrees is where I switch to shorts and a short sleeve shirt when I exercise in the morning.
I get the "weekend" New York Times delivered to my door (a real luxury by the way).  Try as I might, I can't read it on Friday morning before I go to work (along with the Wall Street Journal, Commerical Appeal and the on-line edition of the USA Today).  I would like to subscribe every day, but simply don't have the time.  I can handle it on Saturday and Sunday ok.
Busy day ahead, interviewing four applicants for Receptionist/Admin. Assistant.  I try to be fair and really determine who is best for the position and it takes a lot of energy, especially when literally all of them are well qualified for the position.  

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Summer 2013 July 11

My "Steve Jobs" book listening on my walk had to take a break this morning.  My battery was low on the device I was listening on and I didn't want to take the time to find where I was on another device.  (Time is precious in the morning, when time seems to fly.)
"Man's Search for Meaning" is one of my "Round Tu it's", meaning I always planned on listening to it or reading it when I get a "round tu it".  It has probably been on my list since high school, or at least college.  
I started listening to it this morning, and I expect "Steve Jobs" will have to wait while I finish "Man's Search for Meaning", which thus far is a truly wonderful book.  (I am also enjoying "Steve Jobs", so it is a positive decision either way).  
While I enjoy reading, for some reason, I am not good at summarizing books.  My daughter, Angela, seems to have the magical power of "book reviews" (I think she should start writing them for a career, she is so good), but I have no talent whatsoever in writing a book review. I love to read Angela's review's of them.
It reminds me of when she as around 8 years old, we went to see "Turtle Diary".  I feel asleep but after the movie, she gave me a detailed review of the movie! I watched it again later and was amazed at how she got it so right!)
The day has been wonderful thus far.  About 80 degrees at 3 a.m., the patio is wonderful this morning. (I'll upload a picture).  
For some reason when I was walking this morning, I was thinking it was July 13, which will mark the 40th anniversary of my Air Force last day.  It bought back some real memories.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Summer 2013: July 10

82 degrees at 3 a.m. this morning!  Great Summer!!  I am enjoying sitting on the patio again in the morning.
It looks like the battery on my second (of three) my “gumstick package” iPod Shuffles.  Not bad for 7 years of service, but I will miss the configuration.  Apple Computers has the uncanny ability to shoot themselves in the foot on design.  For example, I also have an iPod player (also around 7 years old) that has a “hold” button on it so I can’t accidentally brush against it and (for example) completely lose my place in my audiobooks.  Of course, none of the “new” ones have this feature. 
By the way, I have completely lost faith in any Google products.  (I still like the Google search and the “drive” programs etc.) The Matrix 7 tablet was ok, but now after seven months it quit working and Staples is not honoring their warranty (an extended warranty even) or even responding to my questions.  So much for Staples and Google products.  The $250 Google computer is ok for some things, but has a bad tendency to suddenly crash and also is very limited in some ways.  When I can buy a PC regular computer with full array of programs available for not much more, it is not a bargain.  Of course, i have my eyes on an Apple laptop, which is considerably more, but worth the cost for the reliability and programs.
Busy at work, interviewing for Receptionist/Administrative Assistant position.  It is tough to select someone, we had many qualified applications.  In our case, the Receptionist is the nerve center of the City, so it is a very important job.

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Summer 2013 July 9



79 degrees this morning, perfect day for the patio this morning.  
Really hectic day yesterday, had to spend most of this morning catching up, so don't have time to write much right now, hopefully tonight.
I promised myself I would always write "Something" every day, so I will.
Something.

Evening, Tuesday, July 9:  Sitting out on patio, really first evening out here.  It is nice, shady and a light wind keeping the bugs away.  
Life can change suddenly.  A friend was coming over to pick up Aliene for a meeting they were going to, and she hit a mail box and smashed up her car.  That moment when you wished you could take back 5 seconds and you know you will be spending a lot of time etc. on details.  Fortunately she was not injured and the car is drivable, but she is still facing the hassles of car repairs etc. Monday and time for nothing, with time being the most expensive.
The summer seems to be speeding by.  Soon it will by my 66th Birthday.  I hear that and turn around looking for my Dad.  I can't  be 66, I feel too young, I have to many things I want to do before I grow up!  Actually, Daddy would be 113 this year and Mama would have been 101.  Time passes whether we are ready for it or not.
Soon we will be going to the Courter/Wherry reunion.  Returning to the basic roots of my childhood each year is a strange journey, each year my daughter and granddaughters (and Aliene and all my brothers and sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles, Nieces, Nephews etc.) getting older also.  Sometimes I go out the the farm and Holton, Kansas where I developed some of my earliest memories.  I see towns I remember when I was a child, such as Circleville, Whiting, Wetmore, Downs, Netawaka, etc. and I realize many of my memories, even now, are routed in this area.   When I vision a town square, I envison Holton town square (as it was almost 55 yeas ago now!!!!! and a jail, the Holton Jail etc.  I still remember walking around the courthouse and fining a dime, so I made a point to walk there every time we came to town.  (I never found anything again.) The memories rush in, even when I am rooted in the present.  
Strange things such as the "new highway" when I was a child, now almost 60 years old!  Of course, the farmhouse I grew up in is long torn down, as is the school building I went to the first 4 grades at (literally a "one room" school with a teacher (Miss Porterfield) who taught all 8 grades.  
I can remember looking at an ad showing a group of four people playing cards as the car drove itself down the highway.  I really thought that would happen by the time I "got old" at 30 or so.  Maybe soon, it will be a reality.  
I remember buying the fist transistor radio.  It cost $20 and I put down .50 in layaway.  I think Vincent got it out, since I would never have had that much money!  (My friend got .50 per week allowance and I remember thinking, if I could get .50 per week, I would never need anything more!  He still lives in the same house by the way, with a family of his own.)

Monday, July 08, 2013

Summer 2013 July 8


I wonder sometimes about attachments to inanimate objects, since as my inability to simply throw away some things after they are worn out.
Yesterday, I read an interesting article about peoples attachment to t-shirts.  
With over 200 t-shirts of my own (some torn to the point of being unwearable), I was interested and understood the story!  I can understand my attachment to "event" t-shirts that bring back good memories etc, but I also remain attached to no-name t-shirts that I don't wear and probably never will.  I have many that are now to big but I generally feel there isn't such as thing as a t-shirt that is too big!  
Several years ago, when I absolutely had to throw away a t-shirt (probably five in the last 20 years), Aliene cuts out the design with the idea of  making a quilt of them some day.
More improbable is my attachment to my iPod shuffles (the gum package type) which are starting to lose their battery power.  After almost 7 years, I can't complain.  However, I really like this type of iPod Shuffle and I can't bring myself to throw them away and I am not mechanically inclined enough to replace the $6.95 battery, but too cheap to pay $52 (more than a brand new iPod Shuffle!) to have someone replace it.  I do throw away magazines and newspapers (give them away when I can) and I also need to get started on disposing of my books, old conference notes I will never review again etc.
Hats are a real problem for me to throw or give away.  Since I take a large hat, I finally have decided to give away (if decent) or throw away (if not) all hats that don't fit me perfect.  
Perfect day on the patio, 76 degrees at 3 a.m.  Busy week ahead, but oddly enough all of my night meetings were canceled.  Interviewing applicants for a vacancy, which takes a lot of time and energy to prepare for.

Sunday, July 07, 2013

The World Without End is Ending





THE WORLD WITHOUT END IS ENDING
POEMS OF THE MIDNIGHT HOUR
BY
ROBERT WHERRY





COPYRIGHT 1993
LAKELAND FREE PRESS


CORNER OF MAIN AND BROADWAY

I watch myself
A bright red fireplug

Upright and permanent
Corner of Main and Broadway

Cars growl past
Exhausts spewing
Reminders of passing

Shoes pace
The concrete desert
To token destinations

Voices
Echoing an endless litany
Of 
Hello good-by, excuse me
Buy me, sell me
World without end

Waiting for my moment of 
Glory
As I stand at attention
Corner of Main and Broadway
URBAN RENEWAL

A dog of another color
Ambles over the red brick road

Followed by

A freckled boy
in tattered blue jeans
And shirt
Feet bare

A rusted Ford
Resolving to run again
Waits on metal rims

A faded blue pickup
Bares all
Amid broken glass and
Torn metal

A broken down sofa
And matching chair
Highlight the
Tangle of weed-infested yards

Amid the wasteland
Scaling paint, sunken roofs
And boarded windows

A black and white
Silently observes
The vapor
Of the dream

A bright white house
Red roses shining like torches
Waits
For the return
To glory
WINTER SUNDAYS

Sundays, my Father
Walked briskly in the early morning cold
Heels crunching on the frozen grass
And describing his early life of 
Shoveling coal for little pay
Oranges only at Christmas
Life without electricity, running water 
And money, while I

Walked with him 
And dreamed of a future 
Of thundering red Corvettes
Travel to beaches and mountains
And plenty of money

Sunday afternoons
He listened to classical music
During his after dinner nap
Dreaming of the good old days while

I listened to the Orange Blossom Special
And the Black Mountain Rag
Captured crooks
With the Hardy Boys
And dreamed of fiddling
With Bob Willis and the Texas Playboys

Dilemmas
In the magical kingdom
Of life













WHAT THE QUILT KNOWS

With its
Red, white and blue squares
Solid and respectable

Pink spirals
Crawling
Toward black borders
Intent on irrelevance

White spheres
Besmirched by
The years

Visual vanities
Crafted
Out of colors of the psyche

Knowingly wrapping itself
In the starched propriety of
Respectability
SHE

She kindly broke his wings with an honest 
        answer

And with rejection broke his winds of hope

Her sudden laughter broke the wings of his dreams

As memories broke the wings of the moment

Than the clouds broke the mood of the day





















SEAS OF CHANGE

Where mountains
Rise from the smooth skin of earth
Where glass eyed lakes
            form glittering images

Where valleys wrinkle 
            the face of the earth

There intrudes the symbols of childhood
A steel-eyed Indian, in harmony with nature
Lewis and Clark
          mapping the destruction to follow

There, in the wilds of Idaho

Calling me

I dream of endless trees
A life without care

Part of me lives
For the full moon rising
Over the mountains
Reflecting on the water

Alone with my thoughts
Part of me wanders in
        a world without people

And has reached the bottom

Where I live in
            a sea of change without change

PORCH MAGIC

The porch 
Surrounding the house of our yesterdays

Elaborate architecture of wood
Flat as the Kansas prairie

The rotting
Unpainted boards

Became elaborate cities 
With high rise office buildings
Freeways, parks
And people

Surging seas with warring ships
Peg legged pirates,
Feuding on the stormy water
Burying gold coins in wooden chests
On small deserted islands

The badlands teeming with desperadoes
As we rode in
Beat the bullies
And loved the ladies

Rejoicing in our shadow lives 
In the blazing summer sun

The reality of the porch was,
Cool nights
Sleeping with the dogs and the cats
A shady spot on a hot summer day

Twisting on the support poles
Intoxicated by the motion

Of reality
Good as the myth
HAIKU

Spring dissolves into
dusty dry red pictures
of ordinary death

winter arrives as
a glittering and guilty
victim of summer

patterns of green lurk
in trees, visual systems
of an early spring

birds, brightly colored
trill songs, desperate homage
to slumbering sun




























DREAMS OF YOUTH

Living in the present
Life,
A never ending song
Of highs and lows

Old age
A foreign place
Never to be visited
Like a never present tomorrow

Hearing the sweet songs of Spring 
Dissolve into
The sour dirge of Winter

Visual fading
As the years 
Stain the colors of
Dreams unfulfilled 
Like a sunset, swallowed by the dark

Touching
The rough dry form
Of the wrinkled replica of life
The roughness of the years
Like hardened bark on a tree

Tasting the my
Of sour
Shattered success
And bitter
Tattered dreams

Hearing the cheers of youth
Turn to the jeers of
Retrospective thoughts

The redundant musty odor
Of wasted time and opportunities
Like the muddy river, never
To be the ocean

DAYBREAK

Yellow light,
Fractured by the shades
Filters into the room
6:50 a.m.

Sleep collapses into shrilling alarm
With silky voices

Into reflection
Of plastic answers
Brain foggy

Dark emotions
Dreams, now
Exposed to light

New decisions
The new day
Hits my face
Like cold water

Day breaks
Into the glass of light

Cold water
Hits my face

New day
New Decisions











CELEBRATION

I celebrate
The first jolting cup of hot black coffee
Lake a blade cutting through the fading dreams

I celebrate the ritual of 
Lifting weights of iron
In the middle of daily chaos

I celebrate the surprise phone calls
The morning mail,
A letter or card arriving
Like a sudden unexpected gift

I celebrate the cherry pie
Delightfully red and sweet
A marvel of perfection
Amid the routine of ordinary

I celebrate the twilight
And all stars defending the settling
Of darkness